I honestly love [and obsess about] blogging. In an ideal world I would blog every day about the topics I think about blogging about during the day when im doing other things.

Today's topic - ME.

For the past few months I've been ill due to an infected gallbladder which I had removed a week from tomorrow. According to the doctor, my gallbladder has been infected for a very long time. Strangely I've only be sick since Christmas time. Luckily the surgery was "minimally inivasive" and I'll make it out with three tiny scars.




On a personally more exciting note, I'm happy for Hugh Hefner and Holly Madison.



Holly lives with Hugh in the Playboy Mansion alongside his other girlfriends Kendra Wilkinson and Bridget Marquardt but twice-married Hugh believes that she’s really the one for him.

He told the Daily Mail recently: “I love her more than either of the two women I married.”

“She completes me. Everything I do is more enjoyable because I share it with her. We have common interests in movies and in music and we are very compatible sexually.

“Am I going to marry Holly? I don’t think so. She’s as close as I’ve found in my life to a soulmate. I’ve seen what marriage does to a soulmate. People stop trying.”

“But I do think that eventually Holly and I will have a monogamous relationship. Do Kendra and Bridget know that? Sure, it’s fine with them. They are here for different reasons.”

He added that he is currently enjoying his life more than he has than any of his preceeding 80 years: “This is the best time of my life. Who in this world, on this planet, has a better life than I do? Nobody.”

“If I had a chance to live again, I would hope I would be me again. In other words, it doesn’t get better than this. I still have a sense of wonder at how far I’ve come, and I’m not going to lose that. I think I’m the luckiest guy on the planet.”

I think it's too bad that Hugh hadn't been born sixty years later or that Holly hadn't been born sixty years earlier. Huge and Holly get a lot of snickering because of the age gap, but sometimes it makes me think. I find myself bouncing from relationship to relationship [relationship is a very generous and loose term here] trying to find "the one", but what if fate wills us apart? I used to think that some people are ment to be single because their "one" died in a car accident when they were 12 or he lives in a underdeveloped tribe in the unexplored and untamed wilderness of Africa; But I never once thought of the possibility of him being born sixty, three hundred or a thousand years before or after me.

But until I meet my soulmate, I don't mind living vicariously through Hugh and Holly.

Tags: gallbladder, holly madison, hugh hefner, paul walker
Where Is: La Casa de Mis Padres
My Pet Is: high
I Listen To: The Bad Touch - Bloodhound Gang

All that is needed to be said is note what the two arrows are pointing at. Honestly. Who comes up with this BS?

Tags: terrible advertisment
Where Is: Ollie
I Listen To: This Is Why I'm Hot -MIMS

A small side step away from the usual posts.

I have fallen into a bad habit of watching YOUtube when I have other things to do. I didn't post on sunday which means I failed my New Years Eve resolution, but I thought I'd share something.



Ahahaha. If you think you have issues, you have another thing coming.

No matter what is troubling you, stressing you out, or won't leave you alone. At least it's rational. Life could be worse.

Tags: pickles
Where Is: Oliver 1044
My Pet Is: amused

In the past few days, the weather in the midwest has been plaguing the plains. Ice storms covered the houses, the trees and the roads. Then, as it does, the sheets of ice turned into falling snow flakes. After nearly two weeks of a Winter Wonderland, it seems to be slowing down. Total damage? Barely three inches of snow.

What doesn't make sense is why the streets haven't been cleared until this morning. Chicago, however, took care of it's streets long before the snow set in.


Chicago

It is not difficult to send out a few trucks every few days and spread a little salt and holiday cheer. The streets of Chicago have been barely touched, but a horde of snow plows were already clearing the dusted streets while the streets of Lawrence remain slushy and slick. News stations have been predicting and warning us about the storms for days in advance. What takes so long?

Why wasn't the City of Lawrence prepared? Further more, why wasn't New Orleans prepared? Why wasn't New York prepared? All three situations came with advanced warning.

I think it's about time a new regime take the wheel and drive. It's time to stop 'saying' and start 'doing'. I think it's John Edward's time. [Possibly Hammer Time?] No more excuses for the absense of ice trucks that in turn caused 33 unnecesary deaths due to falling bits of frozen rain. No more excuses for making people chose between paying for medicine or paying for food/rent. No more excuses, period.

But until 2008: Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow.


Fun With Snow

[P.s. Click the links. They're fun.]

To be "screwed". A screw is a small peice of metal with another slender thread of metal spiraling down the side of it. The thread doesn't make a full circle with no beginning and no end, but starts at the top and weaves its way down to the bottom where it stops.

My life follows a similar pattern: it started at the top (birth, with my entire life ahead of me) and then as it went on, I fell into similar patterns - not the same person, but generally the same situation over and over again. That's why the thread doesn't connect each circle but continues on, mirroring the line/situation above it.

The silver lining of the situation(s), is that eventually I will stop with the circuling, and my thread will weave itself into a design that works.

Until then, I remain screwed.

Where Is: My childhood bedroom.
My Pet Is: bitchy
I Listen To: Its Still Rock And Roll to Me - Billy Joel

Hmm. I am not one to hate, but the man I saw wearing a red shirt with yellow writing clutching a well fingered bible outside of Wesco is a moron. The preacher's entire arguement against what any one said that day was "In the Gospel according to Mark...." "In Job chapter two..." yadda yadda yadda. Thanks for demonstrating your reading skills. We're all very impressed. However you lack in analytical skills. Having been Catholic Schooled for 14 years finally comes in handy. Thank you Mom and Dad. The bible is full of contraditions: "An eye for an eye" and then "If your neighbor slaps you on your right cheek, turn the other cheek so that it can be slapped as well." A majority of the bible is full of these little verses. So what do we do? HMMM. Upon further thought perhaps Jesus, the Apostles and all the Saints are trying to get us to THINK FOR OURSELVES. Hello - Jesus died. He cannot be with us every step of the way to hold our hand when crossing the street or whiping our ass when we are done going potty. Thus He left us with the Bible; a tool to use or not to use to make up our own morals and values. Please, preacher man, stop reciting quotes writen in a dead language and try to apply them to modern day thought.

A facebook group I'm apart of posted this question in regaurds to the preacher:

Donte Freakin Bean:

first ima start of wit a story so wendsday theres was a protest at our school... this african american dude came to the campus with a suit on and a bible in hand but on top of the suit he wore a shirt sayin HOMOS DONT GO TO HEAVEN and on the back it read HOMOS GO TO HELL... so he was out there preaching out loud... basically telling the everyone there about the things that will make you go to hell aportion, having sex before your married, fornacation, and all that good stuff and not one person bothered to listen to him... they disrespected him and every way people threw bibles, eggs made posters reading im an idiot and stuff like that... but that not what im what to discuss... i know theres not gonna be as many people discussing this topic but hey only the brave will comment so the question is... How do you feel about GAY's AND lesbians, how do you feel about homosexuals being able to adopt children... and is that goin to be a good the child.... where do homo's go after death.... so let see who is the first to comment about this but please do me a favor and NOT LEAVE ANY DISCUSSIONs ON THE WALL LEAVE IT ON THE DISCUSSION BOARD

To which I went on a rambling reply:

I think that there is nothing wrong with being gay, lesbian, bi and/or transgender. I have just as much respect for them as I wish people would have for my sexual preference. There is no correlation between sexual preference and the ability to raise children, so I vote yes for the adoption of children by a GLBT parent. My biological father was an abusive alcoholic who was in no way fit to parent any child, his own or anothers, but he was a straight man. My cousin is a lesbian and her and her partner are raising two excellent boys. The boys have learned to be compassionate, set priorities, be accepting of others, kind, generous, play sports, watch tv, have poker tournaments, how to cook, how to get good grades. What REALLY MATTERS when raising children is the quality of parenting. Having a mother and a father does not equal success in raising children. Stating that a mother is necessary so that children learn to the gental, femine characters and that a father is necessary so that children learn the 'storng' masculine characteristics is completely gender discrimination and utterly untrue as well as naive. The only difference between my cousin's boys and those children raised by straight couples is that the level for understanding and acceptance of the difference of others may be slightly higher depending on the children in question. Children need to be in a safe, encouraging, loving environment. Sometimes it's a single father who fits the bill. At times it's the traditional mother, father, 1.2 kids, Fido the dog and a little picket fence. But in the modern world, it's a foul and ignorant move to disreguard same sex parenting.

Consider the family in which the father dies or leave the family and a mother is left to fend for herself and her children. Then a grandmother or a sister comes into the picture to help with the house and/or the children. In this situation there are two females raising children. With out the title 'lesbian' this becomes socially acceptable.

Hmm. 'Socially acceptable'. Society will reflect the values and morals of the people with in the society. This means that at any given time the values and morals can, will and do change. I encourage people to take the time to logically think about the individual situation (as opposed to using inductive reasoning) and make decisions for you self. If your new found (or if your thoughts confirm the ones you had prior to) go against the grain socially, economically, or even against your family, then be stead fast in your beliefs. There is absolutely nothing wrong with being an individual with your own thoughs. You may find yourself in position to fight for your cause and try to educate the minds of others. Be not ashamed of what you believe and how you feel. But never make a belief of anothers your own with out analyzing the evidence behind it.

To adress such instances of priests who have sexually molested alter boys - Yes, these men are disgusting perverts who took advantage of their power and position within society. However, children are sexually assulted and molested by adults every day. It is not a new nor shocking story. The emphasis on the sexual preference by these select priests only justify the bias held by a vocal extremist minority.

Whether or not a person is "good" or "bad" is completely subjective. What people should know by our age is that judging some one because of a single factor is unfair and cruel. The sexual preference factor could be replaced with RACE, GENDER, SOCIAL CLASS, IQ, ABILITY (ie. football star, pianist, reknown author) and so on and then perhaps a few opinions on the subject might change.

The lesson here is to get to know a person (goals, dreams, fears, wants, needs ,desires, favorite football team, expectations, favorite movie, etc..) before making a judgement.

PS. I disagree with this terminology of 'homo'. Homo derives from the latin word homosapien which is just the class of animal all men and women are classified in. So ... It makes no sense and only makes the preaching man look like an arogant fool.

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If you read this entire thing I'm completely impressed. Good for you Glen Coco. You go, Glen Coco.

I Listen To: Deja Vu - Beyonce

Apparently I'm rediculous.

I have issues with my best friend telling me that when she comes to KU this Saturday she's already made plans to hang out with my exboyfriend instead of with me. I cried and said, "A! HIS FUCKING NAME IS TOM! HE STOPPED BEING TOMMY WHEN WE BROKE UP IN APRIL!" Ahem. To continue to question her why she felt it was so necessary for her to befriend and to get close to my ex boyfriend. At which she questioned me why I didn't want to be with him anymore.

Why is it that people need "He picks his nose at stop lights when he thinks nobody is looking but every one really is." reasons for why relationships split? Cliche, but sometimes people just grow apart. As people get older, values change, goals change, the person we thought we once were changes. This is not necessarily a bad thing. Sometimes people change for the worse.

Like my girlfriend Mandy. She threw away a college degree to join a cult-ish chuch group in which she will spend the next 10 months and exorbident amounts of money studying the bible according to this group, living with them and having little else contact with her former life. This is not such a good change.

But some changes are good. My brother John broke up with his girlfriend Mizti. First off, that 'sa stripper name and we don't need chlyamidia to run in our family. As a Kisthardt member I can say for a fact we enjoy being STD free. Not to say it wouldn't be nice to have a nice, high steady income but honestly - I hate Mizti's mother. She's a fat bitch who yelled at me one time. This Mizti made my brother lie, steal and stop talking to us. But now my brother has told the little bug eyed bitch, buh bye. He's now a varsity soccer player with good grades and now a good relationship with his family. FUCK YOU MIZTI. See? A good change.

Sometimes these changes come from within and sometimes they come put on us. My child development class calls it "Active" and "Passive". Change that comes from within is called Active and in my case, my decision to brake up with Tom came from myself. No other reason. Things just changed between us. I'm no longer attracted to him. We still have things in common and he knows my life story, but there's been a shift that I don't care to 'fix', mainly because it's not broken. Then there is change that comes from another enacting force. For example, "He farts in bed." or "He thinks im fat." Whichever, but still the point that the decision for the break up did not come from within, but was more of a quialitative change is what "passiveness" is defined.

I'm sorry, Meagan, but I can't tell you why I don't want to be with Tom anymore. It's not anything he does, it's not the things he says. There is no blame or fingers to point.

Really, it's not you, it's me.

Where Is: Oliver 1044
My Pet Is: angry
I Listen To: Talk - Coldplay

Rrrright. right. right.

To date, my recent writings have just been me rambling on and on about unimportant things. But I was driving home from Wichita today and I realized that I am fully capable of something. Not something great, life shattering or worth studying as a part of your American Lit class - but something more.

There are things that I know that I want you to know. But the only way for you to understand is through suicide.

And literature is an authors suicide.

Now it's mine.

Where Is: basement
My Pet Is: contemplative
I Listen To: Bokkie -via- Elefant